So...my plan of avoiding men as more than friends for the summer has sorta backfired...but I dunno, it's just harder than what it seems. I don't feel like dating someone but yet deep down I have this yearning for something more. I felt like mush yesterday as I cried myself to sleep a bit and I know I shouldn't. I can do better than this. I shouldn't let this get into me. I feel weak, I shouldn't. I'm just going a bit insane right now and I really feel like I have no one to talk to. I want to get closer to my mom but at the same time I am hesitant. I can't trust her, deep down I just can't even if she is my mother. I feel like she wouldn't understand any of it. I emailed the counselor I saw during my first year at college, she hasn't responded with anything at all. Gahhh! Sometimes, I just don't know what to do anymore.
I feel helpless. Does anyone want to listen to me? Anyone?